Everyone has something they don’t like about themselves, some have multiple somethings that they don’t like about themselves. Take yours truly for example. There’s a few things that I don’t exactly like about myself. Several small little pieces of me that could stand to be improved. I’m not perfect, although I am pretty damn close!
No, seriously. Stop laughing. I am pretty damn close!
That’s beside the point anyway, so feel free to laugh all you like. The point of this entry is focusing on the fact that I am not perfect. However, despite the flaws, I am content, and capable of dealing with it and be happy with who I am. However, there is a side of me that I not only dislike, but that I totally despise! It’s a darker side of my personality, that I had thought that I managed to destroy. Turns out, all I managed to do was bury it over really well.
The Darker side which I am talking about is my Jealousy. I thought I had eliminated it from my life, simply because I haven’t felt jealous for a good couple years. However, recently the green eyed monster has begun raising it’s head back up into my life. This disgusts me, because I hate the feeling of jealousy. It litterally makes me sick to my stomach.
So, why is it suddenly back after not being around in such a long time? I wish I could answer that. I suppose there are a dozen possible reasons. I just wish that in the end, that these feelings of jealousy weren’t part of who I am, and I hope I can eventually purge them from my personality.
Made in the Shaide 