I love my family. I really do. I would be lost if anything ever happens to them. I love and adore them. The thing is, me anbd my family don’t usually get along. We argue, we fight, we yell and occasionally scream. I don’t like the fact that we do this, it makes me upset and such, because if something happens to them or to me, I don’t want the last thing they have to remember of me, or me to have to remember of them, is a huge giant messy fight.
I also end up feeling like total shit after a fight, and our family doesn’t do the whole appology thing. In fact, if someone tries to appologise it usually makes the situation worse and you end up hearing something to the effect of “Well, saying sorry doesnt do squat! The only thing that does is try to ease your mind because you feel guilty, and you should because you’re wrong!”. Which is crappy, because, honestly…if someone does feel bad for something, them saying they are sorry actually for me DOES make me feel better, because it’s their way of they didn’t want what happened to have happened.
Anyway, I just had one of those family arguments, and I am depressed, so I think I am just going to go sit on the porch for awhile.
Made in the Shaide 